Thursday, October 09, 2008
episode: -> (r a n d o m) thoughts. <-
i don't like myself.
i am too nasty.
i am too evil.
gone is the sweet and lovable old me.
(compared to the current me)
why. Why. WHY.
what went wrong.
i realised every incident happening in my life has different degrees of impact on me.
especially that of those who are considered to be more important to me.
(or those who used to (but no longer) play a significant role in my life)
i kept getting flashbacks of snippets of memories of the past recently.
i don't like it.
in fact, i don't like it one bit.
it is as though i am being haunted by my past.
i somehow became more paranoid.
i became more dubious of the things/people around me.
i remember i used to be a better person.
(without the above-mentioned traits)
some people are just so fake.
i don't know what to believe, who to trust.
i don't know whether to laugh, or to simply ignore.
i thought it matters no more.
but maybe i had underestimated the potential power of it (it had over me).
~ Beautiful Season ~
.. and this is how the story ends ..
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