Monday, July 18, 2011
episode: -> A Dream. <-
i jolted awake to a supposed sweet dream this morning.
the dream seemed so real and normal, yet also so out of place.
i don't know how to describe it, but maybe that's why i jolted awake in the first place.
Charlene (Aunty Ting) was in the dream, as my friend and advisor, together with me.
we met up with some guy (unknown), who brought us to a beautiful house.
somehow or another, we were viewing and admiring the house.
that's when
he appeared in my dream.
we were going to get married soon.
we were planning to get the beautiful house.
Charlene was giving her constructive inputs about the house.
everything felt so.. normal. happy. blissful. L-O-V-E.
it felt so real.
i remember my heart leaping with joy.
i am going to get married to
him.
he stepped down from some stairs above, and opened his mouth to ask, "who knows how long can the ceiling paint last?"
i immediately raised my hand high up to answer his question, "5 years!"
and i jerked awake.. back to reality.
i immediately felt so horrible and emotional.
regardless how much anger, hurt, and disappointment.. etc etc., can never mask the fact that there is this underlying deep love i have for
him.
i guess i really missed and loved the guy i once thought i knew.
sighs.. :'(
~ Beautiful Season ~